Journal Entry by Bec Tobar

S – Scripture:  Mark‬ ‭10:36-38, 40, 51-52‬ ‭TPT‬‬
““What is it you’re wanting me to do?” he asked. “We want to sit next to you when you come into your glory,” they said, “one at your right hand and the other at your left.” Jesus said to them, “You don’t have a clue what you’re asking for! Are you prepared to drink from the cup of suffering that I am about to drink? And are you able to endure the baptism into death that I am about to experience?” “but to have you sit in the position of highest honor is not mine to decide. It is reserved for those whom grace has prepared them to have it.””

Jesus said to him, “What do you want me to do for you?” The man replied, “My Master, please, let me see again!” Jesus responded, “Your faith heals you. Go in peace, with your sight restored.” All at once, the man’s eyes opened and he could see again, and he began at once to follow Jesus, walking down the road with him.”
‭‭Mark‬ ‭10:36-38, 51-52‬ ‭TPT‬‬

O - Observation
Reading this passage this week, I couldn’t get over the fact that Jesus asked the same question twice, and got two different answers. The question was, “What do you want me to do”. The first was to his friends and disciples. They wanted status and glory. The second was to a man in need by the side of the road. The blind man wanted to see. Both answered out of the abundance of their heart’s desire. The disciples were told that they had no idea what they were asking for, and that what they were asking wasn’t his to give. But to the blind man, Jesus acknowledged his faith and healed him.

A - Application
Two things spoke to me in this passage:
1. I could almost hear Jesus asking that question to me, “What do you want me to do for you?”. Would I waste the question like the disciples had, on things that don’t matter? 
Or would I be vulnerable enough to bring my need and trust Jesus for the answer?
2. Jesus said to the disciples, that the thing they were asking for wasn’t something he could give because there was already a plan in place (as to who would sit where in heaven). I’ve prayed for things, and haven’t got the answer I would have liked. And even struggled with the thought of “why”. Jesus reminds us here that there are plans in place for eternity that have been in place before we ever asked. Maybe His no, has nothing to do with us, but all to do with a greater plan? 

P - Prayer
Thank you Lord that your word brings life to my heart and strength to my spirit. It instructs me in every season.